Part One: Morose Tales (The Dark Vibe Trilogy)

You ever just feel like you exist in a different reality, one that's superimposed on this one; in this realm but not really in it, were nothing but mind and consciousness exists, a realm of thought and spirit.
It's almost like I exist on this physical plane but I'm not really here and it gets so lonely because no one understands you like you'd want them to and you don't even know how to explain it even if you wanted to, so you just lose your self in the abyss of your oblivion.

Some nights I lie in my bed and I'm so certain that there's another consciousness in this alternate reality of mine; maybe more than one
Some days they're so far that I can barely register their subtle and almost unrecognizable presence
On other days they're so close that I can almost touch their consciousness, but the harder I try the more they seem to be just out of my reach
I call out with all the spirit I can muster but the silence is deafening and it feels like it never happened, like it was all just fairies and unicorns, or better still smokes and mirrors
So I slip back into my reverè and hope for everything, for anything.....nothing.

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  1. SomtoJuly 30, 2020 at 10:56 PM

    I feel it too, like I'm physically present here but spiritually, I'm present somewhere else as well. Sometimes I catch a whiff of the conversations of the other place.

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