The Darkest Tunnel (Sequel to Darkest Night)

The worst part about suffering isn't really yours, it's that of your loved ones...of family
Watching them suffer in mind and body and all you can do is stand there and watch; feeling as useless and as stupid as you've always been, unable to help in any way
It eats away at your spirit slowly and steadily, until there's nothing left of you but void and emptiness, a shadow of the person the world thought you could be, nothing near where you hoped you might be and light years away from what your family and loved ones saw in you

You become nothing, less than nothing; infinitesimal in the pyramid of relevance

That's what misery does to the spirit, strips it of all light and colour and leaves it looking dark and hellish
All you can do is hope and pray that the worst doesn't happen
Sticking to routine and doing your part so you don't become a burden and you feel like less of a total waste of oxygen and life itself
You just exist, not for any particular special purpose, devoid of all light and love, and endless tunnel of nothingness
You know that saying about the light at the end of the tunnel? Notice how no one ever tells you how long the tunnel really is.

When we get to heaven, I'll really like to sit down with God so he can make me fully understand this thing called pain
Cause it makes absolutely no sense from where I'm standing, but what do I know?
Nothing makes sense anymore, nothing....

The only thing I do know is that He can do all things, and will do what He wants when He wants
As unfair as it sounds it's our lot, all we can do is trust Him
He loves us
This I know also
But in the end He'll do what He must, what's absolutely best for us, even when it seems like the most evil and vile thing.

But hey what do I know
We are just Olodo people leading Olodo lives
In search of answers to questions we don't know
On a journey to a place that can't be found
Seeking treasures that were never lost

Comments

  1. SaMJuly 5, 2020 at 3:34 AM

    Lovely, keep it up J.
    Your choice for the blog's name is also quite impressive.

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    1. Jeremy MmejeJuly 10, 2020 at 2:50 AM

      A million thanks fam...people like you fuel the creative engine that is my mind
      All the light from this side

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